To Vaccine or Not?

Over the past couple of months, I found myself really struggling with the decision to get vaccinated or not.  I would listen to the “experts” on both sides. I would interview friends about their thoughts and experiences.  I found myself getting into deeper confusion about all of it.  Then I found myself avoiding the subject altogether.  We all know that avoidance never serves anyone or anything.

I decided to have a serious talk with myself about what was happening within me.  I soon realized that I had gotten so raveled into the fear that both sides grappled with, and that fear had amputated me from connecting with myself and the deep well of inner knowing that I have within.  That activated my inner voice telling me, “Urgh!  You know better than to get caught up in that jabber!”.  Yet again, that was not helpful.

I found that I needed to get quiet and listen.  In this process I needed a break to be alone so I could hear myself. I blocked out anything that would influence me including: the phone, social media, laptop, tv, all of it. I talked to myself like a loving friend would talk to a hurting friend.  This helped me be still and let my inner guard down so that I could understand what was happening within me.  What I found was profound, but also not unfamiliar.

I found that my inner child had gotten connected and hooked into all of the fear that is swirling around.  She was “should-ing” on herself and buying into the good girl syndrome. I spent some time reassuring her that we will make the best decision for us, and that we can trust in our inner knowing not having to worry about what the rest of the world thinks.  This quickly calmed that part of myself so that I could get connected with myself at a deeper level.  This space is a connection to something greater than us that is always available to us, but we have to get quiet to be able to tune in.

Now, it’s not important whether I decided to have the vaccine or not.  I respect everyone’s decision as personal and confidential and hold no judgement on their decision. What is important is that I was able to go within and ask my body and my inner knowing what direction to take and not act out of fear. Fear takes us out of that ability. Every. Single. Time!!!

Are you finding yourself succumbing to the fear that is prevalent and rampant in our world? Where are you getting hooked and finding yourself confused and fearful of making decisions?  Rest assured you also have that inner knowing; we all do.  I’m here to cheerlead you and tell you that you don’t have to get hooked into fear or beliefs that are assigned to you. Your inner voice has strength, wisdom and it can be trusted. If you find that you need support finding that inner voice, reach out to me.  I am here to help!